Long Time No Blog

Okay according to this it has been like 4 years since I used this blog. I gave up because no one was reading it and I have no clue how to get my blog out there for other to read so I found writing my stories pointless. My last blog was about my scar which ironically I was thinking about the other day. How I have come so far embracing it. On my last vacation I wore a swim suit that bared my battle scar and I was barley bothered by the stares I'm more self conscious of the bit of flab the scar makes on my bell making it look chubby more than anything now. which goes back to my body image issues. Now I'm just rambling.

I hope Susan still remembers me and reads this... I still lend you book to many friends when they need a perks or outlook on life.

Okay lets see in the past four years...

December of 2010 I graduated college from Kent State University with a BS in Computer Design. I had my heart broken after this but whatever I'm over it... I landed a job at a local Advertising firm which I liked for about the first year. I was there for a total of three years and probably the last to years I hate dit beyond belief. I wa sso stressed and unhappy it affected my health. I had a few phone interviews and a few interview sin Pittsburgh but it never lead to a job which I guess wasn't in the plan. that what my mom said anyways I kinda wanted to to start over fresh new city with only a few people I knew from Ohio there.

 But it didn't work out but whatever I stayed a the firm for another year my heath declined. the place was very oppressive, overbearing, non professional and very sexist. They didn't give me a raise in 3 years and I was making as much at a McDonald's worker with a BS sad isn't it. They didn't pay me because A. i still lived at home. and B. I was a young girl and should get a guy to support me. Oh that angered me every day wasn't the point of a job was to get out of your parents house and support yourself? I guess they thought I should be in the kitchen. I landed a interview thanks to a heads up from several of my former professors at a local Campus of Kent State where I attended. I didn't hear anything for awhile so I found myself stuck. I also work at the local YMCA teaching classes once a week in yoga and I pretty much was ready to quit the ad firm and take more hours at the Y till I found something. I was at my wits end there and health and sanity wise could no longer take it. I was a shell of my former self and was angry all the time. One day at work it was pretty much the last straw and I was about to walk out and quit no 2 weeks I didn't care about the line on the resume. Kent called I beat out 30 people and they offered me the job. THANK YOU GOD YOU FINALLY THREW ME A LINE.

I quit that day work my two weeks out but one of those lande don my vacation I request 4 months in advance so I was all refreshed and ready for my new job. Closing in now on a year I love my job and I applied for grad school and a few short days I'll be starting my first class. I'm excited yet so scared at the same time. But it is something that has always been in the back of my mind and something my former professors always said I should do. So let's see how this journey goes.

Things that also happened of the years I neglected this blog...

I started meeting with a personal trainer once a week it's been a year now. I am stronger and prob healthier then I have ever been. I am slowly becoming less self conscious but I think I will always be isn't everyone. And being a former fat kid I think I will always see my self as that overweight girl. something I will have to deal with I guess. I ran in some obstacle mud runs and proud I completed them in good time too. I feel like a bad ass when I do them. I did 3 last summer and fall and will be doing 6 in 2014. and maybe try a straight 5k run. Who knows right.

I got my heart broken after graduation by a boy who chose to move to Florida over me and you know what Florida can have that douche canoe. Ohio doesn't need him nor do I, but thanks for showing me I don't need a man who toys with my feelings and gives me false hopes and wants me to give up everything while you give up nothing. I do not need someone like that. So I took alot of time off just dated some guys who were real winners (sarcasm). (they really need a sarcasm font it help my life out alot.) So i kinda tried to get happy with myself which was hard with the job situation so I threw myself into the gym for a healthy version of depression and stress release. And I found myself happy single then I hit 25 had my quarter life crisis. I was single all my friends were getting married, engaged or in long term relationship I was the lone singel in a job I loathed.

Once I got my new job things kinda perked up a bit I had a bone thrown at me I guess. I was stood up by  a guy twice but I am glad I did because it lead my to my boyfriend now. He started talking to me the day after the guy stood me up for the 2nd time. My bf is caring, funny, encouraging and I think I am in love for the first time and it feels amazing. We are both kinda in the same point in our lives and we just click. for the firs time I feel like I am putting as much effort and affection into the relationship as he is. Makes me extremely happy and want to be a better person for him. which isn't that what love is about. Being goofy together and wanting to be better for each other.

I acted in a play this past year I had 5 lines but i tried something new... I got out from backstage.

My sister started her BA in nursing I am very proud of her and we took a vacation to Disney World. I met Goofy for crying out loud I was 10 again and it was awesome.

My mom had a rough year and had a flirt with death a driver almost hit her head on but thank god shes fine and okay and I'm glad she is okay. She had cataracts also this year but she is fine and now only uses reading glasses... woo

I travel to Mexico and Jamaica in the past 2 years looking at Costa Rica next.

I'm looking for a house did i mention that it's going on a ear I put a bid on one but it failed inspection It depressed me for awhile but I'm glad I didn't buy it. would been a costly mistake I'm glad I didn't do. So I'm saving and still looking 3 Realtors late rI found a cute little gay man who has my same sense of humor. He pretty cool.

Made some awesome new friends from the theatre and gym this year...

Saw the Goo Goo Dolls live...

Well now I'm just rambling but your pretty much up to date.