That's Me in the Spotlight, Losing My Religion...

I was standing in the empty hall of my highschool starring into my beige colored locker a mere freshman barely 15. Classes were in session but I was excused to leave early today. I grabbed my bookbag and all the books I needed for the weekend and headed towards the front doors. My sister shortly joined me as we walked towards her car to drive home. The mood was somber and quiet we didn't say much till we reached our house, quickly change dinto dark colored clothes and jumped into my mother's car. An hour and a half drive was in front of us and it was one trip to Cleveland I wasn't looking forward to. 2003 was just the icing on the cake so far of nine years of a downward spiral, and me growing angrier with god and Jesus' mysterious ways. (We will talk about this more later.) I sat in the car watching the landscape pass by the window as I tried to remember a time when I looked forward going up to Cleveland every weekend. That seemed like an eternity ago, and now just a distant memory.

The mood in the car was also quiet and continued as the day went on. It was my Uncle Tex's funeral today. I wasn't close with him but it still impacted me. He was a Veteran and wasn't much the same when he got back home, so he kept his distance. I remember him at Grandma's house sitting a tthe kitchen table reading the newspaper or watching him brush his hair in the bathroom mirror. He was the last of my family, all that was left was me my mom my dad and my sisiter. That was it... Everyone else was gone. I remember sitting in the funeral home and we were the only ones sitting in the wake. A cousin from my Dad's side and his wife came by for an half hour. They didn't remember him at all but the intention was nice. Later that day was the funeral and I remember feeling like the last part of my heart died that day, I felt hallow and hurt.

I looked up from the caket as it was being lowered starring over at my parent's a felt angry, broken. I was barely 15 and had experienced more loss then most people ever will in their lifetime. That was the moment I started to lose faith. I was at my witz end and threw my hands in the air waiting for an answer of to why me, why my family... That was the exact moment I gave up on God...

Introductions are Always Akward...

Okay so this is what you can call an experiment. I was inspiried by Susan E. Issacs, and after reading her book I had to do this. She experienced alot in life much like I have, so I'm writing a blog of how I got reunited with religion, God and Jesus in college. Which brings me to my title. One person asked, "What did you do play Beer Pong with Jesus?" Hence the title, it also shows how I went to one extreme to another and basically had a rollercoaster ride. I hope I gain more followers and I also ask you to share your experiences, feelings or even thoughts!

"For I know the plans I have for you, says the LORD. They are plans for good and not evil, to give you a future and a hope." (Jer. 29:11)

So I hope this blog reaches and help people as well as guiding and helping me.

Remember no sparrow falls without the father...

-Aubrey